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Thursday, October 19th, 2006
2:56 pm	Ennegram Fun Thanks for the idea, Manda! If you're curious, take this test free...ignore the ads. http://web.tickle.com/tests/enneagram/?test=enneagramogt Wendy, you're a Type 1 - The Idealist Friends, family, and colleagues probably appreciate you for both your high standards and commitment to excellence. They're also apt to know that when they come to you with a problem, they can trust you to be fair and objective. As an Idealist, you're likely to be seen as a wise and balanced person with strong integrity. Being a member of this type puts you in good company. Jane Fonda with her knack for athletic ideals and commitment to standing up for just causes, and Ralph Nadar, with his idealistic determination as a consumer advocate, are also Type 1s. This means that compared to the eight other Enneagram types, you have a strong sense of what's right and wrong. In fact, you're someone who is typically committed to doing the right thing and making sure you're as good a person as you can be — no matter what situation arises. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
9:30 am	Interesting.....Thanks Jules! Well, I'm not a great beauty like Jules, but this was still fun...unfortunately my top TOP match was Tobey Macguire, but I'll try not to be troubled by the lack of models on my spread. :) I like that some of the peeps are exotic looking though. :) Give this a try, folks! Current Mood: cold (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 30th, 2006
9:04 am	My Life In Brief....Thanks Aerine! :) About Me... Gotten revenge Collected shiny things Joined a dating site Wandered around at midnight alone Wanted to be famous Done any extreme sports Gone up to my crush and kissed them without warning Beat my parent at chess Danced like Vanilla Ice Invented a get rich quick scheme The 'About Me' Quiz at QuizGalaxy.com Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Monday, August 28th, 2006
9:05 am	News Okay so sorry for the long pause on this blog. If you know me then you know how it gets...I get overwhelmed, I stop writing, a lot happens, I can't POSSIBLY catch up and blog it all so I just stop writing completely, and then I realize that NO ONE knows what's going on with me. *sighs* You think I'd learn from this, but I never seem to, so though I appologize, I'm sure it'll happen again. Anyways, now for an uber long update, so if you get bored easily this is your escape clause. :) I promise major changes are afoot though. First the most recent and exciting: I MOVED IN WITH DANIEL THIS WEEKEND!!! YEA!!!! WOOT WOOT!!! Sorry...okay now that that's out of my system here's the skivvy: after 2 1/2 years Daniel finally moved in with me, and we have a beautiful 2 bedroom apartment that's public transportation accessible. :) And the windows look out on trees instead of parking lots...and it's near everything but FEELS quiet and secluded. I LOVE this place, which is a good thing cuz the rent is more than half what I earn. :( Yet I'm stoked. The thing is this is not my fault......the place is a bargain, which for DC suburb is $1365 a month. Since as a social worker I make 2 grand a month after taxes, this gets a bit tight. Daniel helps me however he can with food and utilities but his poor health is keeping him from earning as much as he normally would. We are optimistic though. Daniel still thinks he is dying of a rare disease and is taking a bit of time off soon to get tests done, but I am growing increasingly hopeful that he fits the mold for chronic fatigur synrome/fibromyalgia, which is awful but doesn't kill you. My dad also stepped up and actually did a really sweet thing. He gave us some money for start up costs and bought us a really nice therapeutic matress as a moving gift. This I think will really help Daniel because he's always in pain and the matress ad says right on it that it improves the lives of people with chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. :) I'm hoping that he starts feeling better and that our financial and health problems can resolve. I have 3 grand saved on top of my salary, so in any event, we can last through the end of December.....cross your fingers for me. Anyway, sorry about the money and health worries...it's always in the back of my mind right now. Back to happy stuff. :) My brother and sis in law helped to put up our ikea furniture, and it looks great! We covered our jank dining room table with a nice tablecloth, and now our dining room is all done in black, white, and red with black wood chairs and looks like a French cafe! We don't have our couch yet but I splurged on a wonderful soft one that's great for cuddling, and I can't wait for it to turn up on the 10th. My blue and sand bedroom stuff looks tranquil and beachy in the new bedroom. Things are really coming together. I'm also realizing anew how wonderful and patient Daniel is. As you all know, moving stresses my mind into a pretzel, and he has this really laidback attitude. I made us run back and forth and purchase things and move all our junk and assemble stuff all weekend because it's my get-it-over-with then crash way, and Daniel didn't get mad. He got exhausted and at times begged for mercy a bit, but like he didn't question our relationship or call me an evil bitch woman or anything! The low point for him I think was when I insisted on getting boards for the bed this weekend so we could use the heavy new mattress and he had to tie the boards to the roof of his car and lug them in. Granted, I was right and we needed that mattress by night's end, but he only whined a little. I really owe him one. The thing is he's seeing my worst sides now, and he still loves me. There is hope here! *crosses her fingers* I DID prom,ise him that I wouldn't get like this again though unless we did another move or I had to plan a wedding. I'm thinking I can keep that promise though....I haven't encountered that kind of stress since Kay and I planned HalloweenFest! At least I didn't burst into tears as I usually do during a move though. I love this man so muc! Goddess willing, I'll have an engagement to announce here in a year or so! :) Anyways, that's enough for now.....I promise to blog again soon and detail the awesome and not so awesome aspects of my new job a bit. If you kept reading to here, you're a real trooper and a good friend. Kudos! I love and miss you guys! :) Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
4:11 pm	Really Long But I've got a Few Minutes to Kill... Name: Wendy I guess.....well Gwendlyn REALLY Single or Taken: quite taken Happy about that?: It's ironic...right when I finally realize I don't need a man I find one I DO need...but no complaints. :) Siblings: one younger brother and one kewl sis-in-law Eye color: Blue but with huge pupils so at times they appear almost black....and they are also cameleon so depending on my clothing and makeup at times they look gray or green Shoe size: 6 1/2....I'm a weeny Height: 5'1".....it's sooooo not fair that Jules is 5'10 What are you wearing right now?: black work pants and a dark lavendar tee Righty or lefty: righty Can you make a dollar in change right now: nope...I'd haveta bum it off a coworker private date or with close friends: I like private dates be it with one or two close pals or a special boy *FAVORITES* Kind of pants: I've begun to appreciate stretchy jeans now that I have to dress for work Number: 7 Animal: I want a baby chinchilla!! Drink: Ginger Ale with caffeine Sport: downhill skiing Month: eh....like September or October....not because of my birthday either...because they weather is crisp and cool without ice or snow and the pollen is waning and the leaves are all pretty Juice: apple *Have You Ever...* Given anyone a bath: yes...when he lets me ;) Bungee Jumped: no, I'm chicken Eaten a dog: hell no Loved someone so much it made you cry: yes, but I'm a cry baby Broken a bone: not yet *knock on wood* Played truth or dare: yeah...quite goofy and fun Been in a physical fight: not unless you count RAD training at Hanover.....I knocked that guy good (he was padded though) Been on a plane: yeah many times Came close to dying: once crossing a street I almost got mowed by an SUV when I had the right of way and literally had a near death experience.....oh yeah and I was born nearly dead after a C section to unwrap me from my umbelical cord Been in a sauna: me likie Been in a hot tub: I loooovvvvveeeee hot tubs!! Now that I can't use bubble bath it's a passion of mine! Swam in the ocean: I loooovvvvvveeeee the ocean!! Anyone see a pattern here?? :) Fallen asleep in school: so sue me Ran away: only down the street.....I got my parents to ship me to boarding school though...does that count?? Broken someone's heart: yes but I had to Cried when someone died: more than once Cried in school: I'm a human faucet Fell off your chair: hehehe backwards on my bum is funniest! Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: I admit it....I was a starry eyed high schooler who used to stare at the phone willing crushes to call....too bad I wasn't a more gifted witch at the time...actually it DID work once...but then I froze up...damn! His name was Daniel too...isn't that kooky?? Saved AIM conversations: yeah...evidence against stalkers Saved e-mails: I have trouble deleting email...insane huh? Made out with JUST a friend: I wouldn't say MADE OUT...smooched maybe... Used someone: not when I can help it Been cheated on: he tried it but no one went for it *L* --------------------------------------------------------------- *What is...* Your good luck charm: the number 7, my heart charm from Daniel, and my Sapphire pentacle What is beside you: papers, my phone and cells, the rest of my cubicle What kind of shampoo do you use: color shampoo and herbal essences ---------------------------------------------------------------- *Ever Had...* Chicken pox: Hell yeah...I was 6 and I still remember how much it sucked...didja know you can actually get pox on your eyelids?? Sore Throat: damn sinuses Stitches: on my gums after dental surgery and in another spot that shall remain nameless Broken nose: nope ------------------------------------------------------ *Do You...* Believe in love at first sight: soul recognition at a glance is the birth of love but love grows and deepens as a tree takes root Long distant relationships?: they can work if both people are into it but it can be painful Like school: I liked the atmosphere and hanging out and class discussions (I know...geek) but I hated the cliqueishness and feeling constantly evaluated...so yes and no -------------------------------------------------------- *Question:* Who was the last person that called you: gotta be my sweetie Who was the last person you slow danced with: Daniel...at my brother's wedding cuz I begged him Who makes you smile the most: um...Daniel again! I know I know. Who knows you the best: I do......who could know me better?? ------------------------------------- Do you like filling these out: yeah, they're entertaining Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: I should wear glasses but yeah right Do you like yourself: Yes, I think I finally do...we'd all change a few things but I can finally say yes. Do you get along with your family: most of the time.....my dad has his iffy days though ------------------------------------------------------------------ *Are You...* Obsessive Compulsive: even medicated I'm a menace!! ------------------------------------------------------------------ *Final Questions:* What are you listening to right now: cubicle sounds What did you do yesterday: went to work, watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith at Daniel's, went home and crashed Hated someone in your family: no hate just years and years of hurt feelings Gotten any awards: I got all these dorky accademic awards in junior high What car/truck do you wish to have: like I could even drive it Where do you want to get married: On a beach in May on a tepid day surrounded by ivy and calla lillies and the people I love Have a lava lamp: nope What do you dream about: my biggest fears and anxieties When you last showered: not recently enough Scary or Funny Movies: I love both it's a mood thing Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate but ice cream vanilla Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper: neither, coke and ginger ale! Skiing or Boarding: skiing, baby! Summer or winter: summer.....I dig the winter sometimes but it depresses my sweetie and when he ain't happy ain't nobody happy Silver or Gold: can I pick white gold? Diamond or pearl: diamond I guess but I love sapphires Sprite or 7up: I said Ginger Ale dammit! Coffee or tea: neither Phone or in person: In person. It's easier to read people. I love a phone but there's no substitute for a cherished face Are you oldest, middle or youngest: eldest (shocker judging from my personality) --------------------------------------- *Today did you...* Talk to someone you liked: I like all my coworkers and my mom so yeah Bought something: no Get sick: just a bit of indigestion Talked to an ex: not if I can ever help it Miss someone: a bunch of peeps...if you wonder if it's you it probably is :) ___________________________________________________ *Last person who....* Slept in your bed: my cousin....I crash on the sofa Saw/heard you cry: Daniel Made you cry: Daniel but the fight was both of our fault Went to the movies with you: Daniel took me to see Descent Said "I Love You": either Daniel or my mom ____________________________________________ *Ever...* Been in a fight with your pet: never had one to feud with :( Been to Mexico: no Been to Canada: once...very like us Been to Europe: yeah, i love italy (me too!!) __________________________________________________ *Random.....* Do you have a crush on someone: this is obvious What book are you reading now: The Order of the Pheonix again when I get too stressed at work Best feeling in the world: "knowing someone, and feeling known back, and just being held and such" (I REALLY like this answer, Jules!!) Also realizing how much the people you love love you back. Future KIDS names: Sapphire Star and Dante Alexander Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: sometimes What's under your bed: hehehehe lint Favorite sports to watch: I guess tennis, baseball, or figure skating Favorite Locations: San Francisco, anywhere by the sea, the Point, Florida at Christmas, and Italy at night What are you most scared of right now: pushing Daniel away or going broke Who do you really hate: George W. Bush and the guy stalking Mandy Do you have a job: yes, I work in foster care placement as a social worker Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with: yeah.... the odd thing is like Jules, he DID kinda like me but I blew it cuz I'm a putz....there was another boy in Junior High too but he didn't know I was alive at all....well if he needed homework help Are you lonely right now: no I feel at peace except for this headache Has anyone told you they liked you?: yes, but only a few really meant it Song that's stuck in your head right now: for no good reason "Unpretty" by TLC just popped into my head....I really like that song but I haven't thought about it in months Have you ever played strip poker: Yes with a bad boy in the parking lot of a post office...we were making out mid game and a cop tried to arrest me for prostitution...not a good night! Have you ever gotten beat up: not badly though three guys did try to bruise me up once when I used non-violent resistance to stop them stealing a little girl's bike...I was 10 How many letters does your "love" have?: not many....I'm more a phone or email your love girl Have you ever been on radio/TV: only cable access TV ( *pulls out a hypno coin* your eyes are getting sleepy...you did NOT see me make an ass of myself on Hanover Idol...) Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: nope...I'd get killed! Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you: it was called puberty ________________________________________________ *Random...* Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex (visual): eyes and butts and sexy lips Do you drink: only rarely and only sweet stuff Ever get so drunk you dont remember: nope but some nights I wish I could forget Hair color: it looks red and I'm sticking to it!! Are you too shy to ask someone out: painfully so.....just asking Daniel if he wanted a second date rendered me pitiful Hugs or Kisses: kisses...from the right boy they make me squeal Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn: butter lots of butter....this is why I'm so pudgy. Favorite Flower: calla lillies Have you ever fired a gun: I HATE GUNS!!!!!!!! Current Mood: listless (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
12:15 pm	Thanks Mandy :) Y O U ... C A N ... O N L Y ... T Y P E ... O N E ... W O R D ! N O ... E X P L A N A T I O N S ! 1. Yourself: introspective 2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend : adorable 3. Your hair: frizzy 4. Your Mother: sweet 5. Your Father: intense 6. Your Favorite Item: pentacle 7. Your dream last night: working 8. Your Dream Home: beach 9. The Room You Are In: cubicle 10. Favorite Colour: green 11. Your fear: alone 12. Where do you want to be in ten years?: family 13. Who you hung out with last night: mom 14. What You're Not: shallow 15. Your Best Friend: Mandypie 16. One of Your Wish List Items: sofa 17. Your Gender: female 18. The Last Thing You Did: journal 19. What You Are Wearing: pants 20. Your Favorite Weather: starry 22. The Last Thing You Ate: cereal 23. Your Life: happy/stressful 24. Your Mood: sleepy 25. Who are you: Ari Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
9:37 am	Yet Another Meme Junkie TAG!!! Mandy and Julie you're up!! (Click here to post your own answers for this meme.) ✓ I miss somebody right now. × I don't watch much TV these days. ✓ I own lots of books. × I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. ✓ I've tried marijuana. ✓ I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. ✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. ✓ I curse sometimes. ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. ( it goes on... ) Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 1st, 2006
9:43 pm	Shiny Happy Wendy Update First off, I'm sorry...I know that this is loooooonnnnnggggg overdue. But sometimes I get reflective, and my life stagnates, and there are just these big gaps. Anyway, where did I leave off?? Oh yeah! I graduated with my MSW in May, which made me outrageously happy. I also got to see Kayla who I missed SO MUCH and am starting to miss again and lots of other friends. It was great to see how well Ellie is doing, and Julie looks great! I also got to see my friend Lindsay again...I'm so glad that she graduated, and I'm real proud of her. Going back to graduation always reminds me that I actually had FRIENDS at Hanover, which seems really implausable looking back on who and where I was. :) I got to see some alums again too. Sharon looks great, and she's as fun and upbeat and awesome as ever. I got to see Jen and Ernest too, who I hadn't seen in a while, and I was glad to see that they also looked great and were enjoying married life. I honestly hold no grudges there.....the HASAH at Hanover situation was a powder keg, and I wish that there was someway to salvage it, Jen's a really good person and there are lots of memories. But at least we were able to be friendly without any open bitterness, and I have learned at times to cut my losses. I've forgiven and remember the good times with warmth, but sometimes it's too much to ask when so many feelings are hurt to bury a hatchet. Oh bother, I blather on a lot....anyway, I'm glad she's happy and it was nice to see everyone again. Elllie had a great graduation party, and her family is the kewlest....so close knit and fairly laidback and avid readers. It was great to stay at Kayla's new apartment too...it's gorgeous and just as nice as mine at about 1/3 of the cost, but it's my fault for living in DC. :) Oh right! My good news: I finally got HIRED!!! That's right...I got the call on Thursday, and I start Monday. I'm going to be a placement specialist for the foster program at the National Center for Children and Families. Here's the agency link if you are curious: http://www.nccf-cares.org/. They are a non-profit organization that contracts with the DC government to place foster children with mental illness. The thing is the job requires almost no driving, but needs a really organized person, who can coordinate a database and handle complex transactions and persuade people over the phone. Perfect job for me! When a child needs placement in any of our three foster programs, I update the database of foster families, persuade a foster family to take the child, and fill out all the paperwork. I also do temporary placements when a foster parent will be in the hospital or traveling for a few days, which is called respite placement. The drawback is that I'm on-call weekends and at night in case of emergencies, but I tend to be used to friends calling me at odd hours anyway. Oh I'm nervous but excited to finally be able to try my hand at some real live social work. I'll keep you posted on how it all goes. Cross your fingers for me! And finally more awesome news: after months of fights and cajoling Daniel and I are FINALLY moving in together near the end of August! Hopefully by then I will have saved some money, since monthly rent comes out to about half my paycheck, and after deductions, that doesn't leave much room for screwups!! The place is beautiful though, and I'm real excited. It's a bit out of the way of the DC metro area, which should make it more affordable, but it's real pretty and has a nice spacious living room/dining room and master bedroom. The bathroom has a nice large tub too, which I love. Best of all, I could afford an in apartment washer/dryer and a small den for Daniel so I won't smother him to bits. We also get a nice large patio. We haven't signed the papers yet, but I'm in love with it, and Daniel seems pretty positive, so it's probably the one we'll move into. The good news is that I make $40,000 a year...the bad news is that rent will be about $1,450 per month...I TOLD you all cost of living was high here! Oh if you want to share my joy and see the complex go here: http://www.rent.com/rentals/washington-dc/washington-dc-and-vicinity/fairfax/433453/. Anyways, I'll try to post more often, and I hope that all of you are doing well and I'll try to call more! :) Current Mood: cheerful (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
6:39 pm	Done Done DONE!! Well, my sinuses are killing me, but I'd like to announce that I am finally DONE with all of my graduate work! I finished my thesis Thursday and presented yesterday afternoon, and my degree will be mailed in a few weeks. Now, if only I had a job...but then a few weeks rest ould be a good thing...I haveta figure out how to get down to Hanover and where to crash for graduation *hint hint*. Tomorrow, I get to build a playground for kids with developmental disabilities. This should be fun yet exhausting, and I'll go into it more. For now I must retreat to my sofa. :) Current Mood: tired (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
12:18 am	Fun!! (Plus I needed a Thesis Break) What Color Sharpie Are You? (25 different colors) Updated! Turquoise Sharpie "Follow the rainbow the next time you see it." Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code I'll post a real one later.....promise! :) Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
3:12 pm	Good News! Well, I have a serious job possibility at long last......not a perfect job, but a much better than I expected job to be sure. :) I'll start at the beginning. After reading every want ad posting 26 times and realizing that everyone who was in the mainstream posting wanted a driver or someone with experience, I began the Dance of Pure Desperation last night. Granted I had an interview yesterday afternoon, but oddly enough, it just made me feel worse. Mainly because I interviewed well but it was just one of those situations where we both knew it was futile. I mean she told me she had many more of these interviews to do, and I possessed the bare minimum qualifications. For those of you who haven't done it, The Desperation ritual goes something like this: you type a loose location and criteria for the type of agency you want into a search engine and skim absolutely every hit that comes up. If the agency looks at all compatible with you, you skim their employment page. Well, between last night, and this morning I must've skimmed over a hundred pages, and I've probably visited a good half of the social agency pages in the DC metropolitan area. Including some little low budget places that no one has ever heard of. By the end of it, your head aches, your phone isn't ringing after you've sent a dozen resumes, and I must admit, that for the first time in several years, suicide was beginning to seem like a plausible option. But I digress: the good news is that I got a hit this afternoon! It was from an agency that I hadn't seen advertised anywhere and probably would NEVER have found in any other way called DC Community Connections. I say that the job is good but not perfect because I would be doing case work with adults instead of children, but i would be working with people with mental illness and would learn a lot. Better still, no one mentioned driving at all when they called me! I read on the website that all homes are within distance of public transportation for the ease of the clients. :) The pay wasn't great but totally decent for a newbie like me: the offer was $34,000 (which for you Indiana folk is probably more like $20,000 in Indiana money). This isn't bad because though I really wanted $40,000, i was going to use about 5 grand or so to pay for clinical supervision, and that's a major perk of this position. I'd work on a clinical team, and supervision would be totally free! I'm psyched about that....I need a chance to grow and work with other professionals. They also offer full benefits and metro discounts....I think I'll like it there. I don't wanna jump the gun, but Jack the head social worker there scheduled my interview for this Friday, so I'm thinking that I have a good shot and that he's eager to hire. I hope that I get the job...it would be grueling and challenging work but fascinating too and a chance to learn alot. Jack said that I would get heavily involved in the lives of 20-25 clients (which I prefer to having a caseload of over 100 that you rarely see.) The illnesses would range from mild bipolar disorder to severe schizophrenia.... talk about "out of the pan and into the fire"! I feel good about this though. I think that the job sounds rewarding, but it's just thankless and underpaid enough that the competition won't be immense. Cross your fingers for me, and I'll keep ya posted! I'm sorry that Wendy's Great Job Oddessey is so boring.....it just doesn't have mass dramatic appeal, but I must say: it's kind of a relief to be dull. :) Current Mood: excited (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
3:14 pm	Oh the disgrace! I had another job interview today. I HATE having job interviews....it goes something like this.....I go in and fill out half an hour of paperwork. The person (in this case Bouacar the HR person from my field placement who I like a lot) asks me a bunch of questions about my prior experiences and abilities in leadership. I think about the last time I had the chance to lead ANYBODY (college) and he realizes how green I am. Then I get told that I'm just a smashing person and will remain in the running but not to feel terrible if the job goes to someone more seasoned. *sigh* Rejection just blows on any level, even if it's not at all personal. I'll NEVER get the experience I need in this city! The market is sooooooo overinflated!!! Ah well, I shouldn't be discouraged....I just really wanted this job, it was at my wonderful placement doing case management with tiny children and their families. The children are either developmentally delayed or at risk of developing one, and they are all adorable. Man, I wish I wasn't me right now. I wish I was a 35 year old social work veteran....then I'd be employed! Oh, and to make my day better, I broke my cell phone charger today trying to get it to connect to my phone, so in like an hour my cell phone will go dead until I buy a new charger. *sigh* Why do some days just blow big salty chunks?? Current Mood: frustrated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
12:07 pm	I Wanna Soak Up the Sun I like my new avatar, and at this point, it probably looks more like me than that five year old photo I had up before. I've gone witchy auburn red now, and I'm loving it.....the color green is my new best friend. :) I'm trying to walk more to burn the calories off for summer and give myself time to reflect, which is going well. I'll update sometime soon when I have real news folks. Current Mood: cheerful (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
10:26 pm	Interesting.... You scored as Sif. </td> Sif 70% Freya 70% Hel 60% Heimdall 60% Frigg 60% Tyr 60% Odin 60% Balder 60% Bragi 50% Freyr 50% Loki 50% Thor 40% Skadi 40% Njord 40% Which Norse God or Goddess are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com Current Mood: good (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 31st, 2006
4:48 pm	Kewl.....a Bit Scary Though Cuz He Doesn't Make It.... :( You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering. </td> Albus Dumbledore 95% Draco Malfoy 80% Hermione Granger 80% Ron Weasley 70% Harry Potter 65% Remus Lupin 65% Sirius Black 65% Ginny Weasley 55% Severus Snape 50% Lord Voldemort 15% Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...? created with QuizFarm.com Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
7:45 pm	A Bit Ouch But Not Terrible Kayla, you sure kicked my butt....must've been all my downer answers on my looks and financial sitch....ah well. :) This Is My Life, Rated Life: 6.2 Mind: 6.3 Body: 4.8 Spirit: 8.3 Friends/Family: 4.3 Love: 7 Finance: 5.5 Take the Rate My Life Quiz Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
11:34 pm	Mandy..... I got bumped by the AOL thing again. If you need to talk, call my cell to let me know that you are by the phone. Hang up once it rings. I'll call you back and then you won't get charged, at least not much. You can call me anytime if you need me BTW, I'm always here for you. This goes for all the rest of you too :) Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
2:09 pm	Identity Confusion Just when I had myself convinced that I was a bitch with no redeaming qualities, I caught myself doing a truly selfless thing; so selfless I almost broke down and cried. I gave up the chance to apply for a job at the agency where I am interning that I truly wanted so that my friend and other intern Althea could have a clear shot. Man is it smarting......I mean the chance to work with 0-5 year old children with developmental disabilities and their families at a place I love......but she is older and more seasoned than me and has three foster children to feed, so she needs to find work more than I do. How do you know that you truly sacrified?? When your heart actually feels pangs of loss at what you've given up. By that standard I've arrived. That said, I still feel bad about how impatient I get with Daniel sometimes. I mean I know it's not all me....he just contributes by being passive aggressive, so I always seem like the bad guy. That said, I just have to step up and stop contributing to the problem. I need not to be a baby. Granted, I feel ignored, but that doesn't mean that I have to lash out, I'll just have to find a better way to express myself. Sometimes I think I'm like a small child. If I can't get positive attention, I'll cry out for negative attention instead. But that's not healthy, and it's not the way adults behave. Anyway, SOMEONE has to end this vicious cycle, and it might as well be me. I am making a resolution that no matter how slighted, ignored, or taken for granted I feel I'm not going to pick at him. I just hope that I can undo at least some of this. For now though, it's back to work. Current Mood: numb (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
10:56 pm	Bitch Sometimes I wish that I were a nice patient person, but I'm not. Sometimes I wish i didn't pick daily fights like a monster. Sometimes I think I should leave Daniel before I destroy him completely. I hate what I've become. Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
4:33 pm	Slam a Door....Open a Window..... Well, I got rejected from that job that I was drooling over in an earlier post, which was incredibly depressing. It definitely felt worse than getting turned down by some guy. I mean, my looks are way less attached to my personal control and feelings of worth, than say, my years of labor, insight, and experience. and yet, sadly, I'm getting used to rejection. That said, I'm realizing that I can't take each time as such a finality because I found another special education job that specified that my degree and not the higher one is required, so I'll cross my fingers on it. Wow, i had no idea just how fragile I was....I guess you forget when you're off the job and dating markets for awhile. I feel bad as well because my Daniel is clinically depressed. I can tell because i really haven't seen anyone so bummed, except when I went through my bout with it when I was 17. I feel so helpless because he's avoiding everyone, me included, and nothing I do helps. At this point, I'd honestly go through it again myself if he'd just stop suffering and that's saying a lot, since I know how bad it is. I'm trying to be strong for both of us, and I wish I was better at it. As peeps who know me well realize, I'm way better at fronting strength than really having any. Bah. Oh well, my life has been quite schizophrenic lately...tomorrow maybe I'll get some incredible new....who knows?? Current Mood: cranky (1 Comment |Comment on this)